I have decided to tackle my biggest (and, most apprehensive) project ever. I have been writing for years. I've also wanted to write about my life and tell my tale. Now, a few things you are probably thinking:
"Why does she think she has a life worth writing and reading about? Does she think she is special or something?"
No, I don't. Not by a long shot. In fact, if you know me personally you know a few things: I am not narcissistic, I am not self-righteous and I don't think I am better than anyone else. I also do not brag. The only things I've ever bragged about are my loyalty to my friends (and I stand by it) and my daughter..which, every single mother does.
The reason I want to write a memoir? Pretty simple. I had a chaotic, crazy, fast-paced life all before the age of 15. Then, a lot more happened after but not focusing on that so much. I had a childhood that a lot of people can not identify with, don't understand or are naturally curious about. That's it. No agenda, just a chance to tell my side of things. Everyone deserves that right.
To put it in a nutshell: I could have easily been a teen on one of those Sally/Ricki/Montel shows back in the day. Easily. Am I proud of that fact? No, not really. But it was my life and I don't know any different.
The largest reason I have put it off this long? Simply put, how many of you would want to delve back into all the crap and chaos in your past? Part of writing about personal experiences means you have to sort of "re live" those times and feelings...and for me, a lot of "the stuff" is quite painful and hard to digest. Even to remember. I have gaps in my memory from those days and I believe it's a defense mechanism.
But, I want to do this. I am going to do this and I am anticipating the final result. I might even shop it around to be published. Whatever happens, I think it's important for each one of us to love our lives, the good the bad the ugly and not have any regrets. After all, the past makes us who we are today.
"Why does she think she has a life worth writing and reading about? Does she think she is special or something?"
No, I don't. Not by a long shot. In fact, if you know me personally you know a few things: I am not narcissistic, I am not self-righteous and I don't think I am better than anyone else. I also do not brag. The only things I've ever bragged about are my loyalty to my friends (and I stand by it) and my daughter..which, every single mother does.
The reason I want to write a memoir? Pretty simple. I had a chaotic, crazy, fast-paced life all before the age of 15. Then, a lot more happened after but not focusing on that so much. I had a childhood that a lot of people can not identify with, don't understand or are naturally curious about. That's it. No agenda, just a chance to tell my side of things. Everyone deserves that right.
To put it in a nutshell: I could have easily been a teen on one of those Sally/Ricki/Montel shows back in the day. Easily. Am I proud of that fact? No, not really. But it was my life and I don't know any different.
The largest reason I have put it off this long? Simply put, how many of you would want to delve back into all the crap and chaos in your past? Part of writing about personal experiences means you have to sort of "re live" those times and feelings...and for me, a lot of "the stuff" is quite painful and hard to digest. Even to remember. I have gaps in my memory from those days and I believe it's a defense mechanism.
But, I want to do this. I am going to do this and I am anticipating the final result. I might even shop it around to be published. Whatever happens, I think it's important for each one of us to love our lives, the good the bad the ugly and not have any regrets. After all, the past makes us who we are today.
2 comments:
I hope you write it! I would be the first to purchase a copy! Why don't you do NaNaWriMo with me? Kori xoxo
Aw, thank you!!! I want to read yours too. I would do NaNaWriMo but I just don't have the time...baby, school, job hunting...there is no way I could do it at this time in my life. I'm just going to write my memoir a little at a time, haha. Which means, it'll take years to finish.
Thanks for the support, sweetie xo
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